I woke up this morning to find my foot is sore again. Not only that, but I also have a sharp pain in the other one, too. Feels like a pinched nerve or something.
All from walking 3km?
Blah!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Saturday, September 29, 2007
TT
This morning I went to the 5km time trial at Shorncliffe. It was really good to see everyone, although I felt really self-conscious going back looking and feeling so overweight and unfit. Was great to see Uncle Phil though, who is looking heaps better after his surgery.
So much has happened since I was last there – the problems with my foot and then the other stuff that’s had me in hospital three or four times… all in all, I feel rather changed by the last few months. Hopefully in a good way. Time will tell, I guess!
Anyway, my orthotics are still painful, so I probably walked 3km today. My feet are sore, though not blistered. I did attempt to run a couple of hundred metres, just to see what it feels like with the orthotics and it felt truly bizarre, like I am running with my toes turned in and down. My body weight and stride has shifted so much that I’m paranoid I’m going to twist my ankle or fall over. I’m not quite sure what affect running on the outside of my feet is going to have on the rest of me, either.
Anyway, babysteps.
Only seven months, three weeks to go until I can take them out.
So much has happened since I was last there – the problems with my foot and then the other stuff that’s had me in hospital three or four times… all in all, I feel rather changed by the last few months. Hopefully in a good way. Time will tell, I guess!
Anyway, my orthotics are still painful, so I probably walked 3km today. My feet are sore, though not blistered. I did attempt to run a couple of hundred metres, just to see what it feels like with the orthotics and it felt truly bizarre, like I am running with my toes turned in and down. My body weight and stride has shifted so much that I’m paranoid I’m going to twist my ankle or fall over. I’m not quite sure what affect running on the outside of my feet is going to have on the rest of me, either.
Anyway, babysteps.
Only seven months, three weeks to go until I can take them out.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Orthotics...
Orthotics....
Ow.
I feel like I'm walking on potatoes. It feels so unnatural having my weight moved to the outside edge of my feet. Like I'm going to twist my ankles very easily.... I am currently doubting very much that I will ever be able to run on these, let alone get used to it! They're so hard.
Time will tell, I suppose. I go back for a final check in, in a few weeks.
I may attempt to walk the 5km time trial on saturday, depending on blisters.
Ow.
I feel like I'm walking on potatoes. It feels so unnatural having my weight moved to the outside edge of my feet. Like I'm going to twist my ankles very easily.... I am currently doubting very much that I will ever be able to run on these, let alone get used to it! They're so hard.
Time will tell, I suppose. I go back for a final check in, in a few weeks.
I may attempt to walk the 5km time trial on saturday, depending on blisters.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
update
Well, I pick my orthotics up tomorrow. They said I should wear them for a week to get used to them before starting to try to run again. With the rain and cold last night, my foot is still hurting which means I shouldn't really run until it doesn't hurt again anyway.
I also appear to have an ear infection, caused by a sore throat, which was caused by hayfever. Consequently, I constantly feel like I've been swimming and want to jump up and down and shake my head to dislodge the fluid. No gratifying rush of water though. Sooooo frustrating! It also means I'm almost completely deaf in one ear and very dizzy as a result. My lovely running doc, C, is on holidays, but if it's not better in a few days, I'll have to see one of the other doctors for some antibiotics or something.
Had coffee with my lovely now-running friend, E, last night. She has started coming to the run inn and is loving it. I hope I can get back to the point where we would be able to plod together.
Am starting to tackle some of the other health issues I've had recently. It's a slow process and long term treatment, but I'm going to give it a go to see if it works. Better than doing nothing.
I also appear to have an ear infection, caused by a sore throat, which was caused by hayfever. Consequently, I constantly feel like I've been swimming and want to jump up and down and shake my head to dislodge the fluid. No gratifying rush of water though. Sooooo frustrating! It also means I'm almost completely deaf in one ear and very dizzy as a result. My lovely running doc, C, is on holidays, but if it's not better in a few days, I'll have to see one of the other doctors for some antibiotics or something.
Had coffee with my lovely now-running friend, E, last night. She has started coming to the run inn and is loving it. I hope I can get back to the point where we would be able to plod together.
Am starting to tackle some of the other health issues I've had recently. It's a slow process and long term treatment, but I'm going to give it a go to see if it works. Better than doing nothing.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Drumroll, please... finally saw the foot doc
Went to see the foot doctor today and ended up spending the entire day at the Brisbane Private Hospital. I am so completely over spending days inside hospitals, but I decided, after waiting for months to get in and see the specialist it would be worth it just to finally, finally get a prognosis.
My initial appointment was at 9.30am. The doc looked at all the x rays, bone scans and then finally, the last MRI that diagnosed the Bursitis. Then he tells me that actually, he doesn't think it is bursitis at all. Instead, he thinks a bit of the bone in my foot has died because it shows up as a horrible grey colour, not white like fluid. This would also explain why nothing showed on the bone scan, since there is no increased blood flow to make it a 'hotspot'.
Cue much panic and him not giving me a straight answer on what would happen if it was dead.
So, I get sent straight off for another $450 MRI scan to confirm it.
With much baited breath and gnashing of teeth (and contemplating a lifetime of pain in my foot or surgery or far worse no more running) I finally get back in to see the specialist at 4pm.
He reviewed the new MRI and turns out it is bursitis after. Phew. Chronic Sesamoiditis, to be precise. To fix it, I've got to get an orthotic made for the foot and wear it for six to eight months. It will probably take that long until the inflammation goes down and the bursa thins out again. I can try running on it when it starts to feel better but I have to stop immediately if it hurts. So this means no long runs for a long time and counting forwards eight months, looks like I might not make it to the GCM next year either. Waa.
Looking at the bigger picture, I know this is actually good news (no surgery or cortisone!) and I'm very happy the bone wasn't dead. I guess part of me had been waiting for this appointment for so long that I had half imagined there'd be some magic bullet cure. Or that it wouldn't take so long to fix. Or that I'd known how to fix it months ago. At the moment I just feel cranky because I walked alot yesterday to stir it up for the specialist and consequently my foot now hurts like hell again and I'm truly, truly sick of it.
But there we are. Thinks could be worse. Once I have a couple of orthotics made, I can start trying to run again. That at least, is something.
My initial appointment was at 9.30am. The doc looked at all the x rays, bone scans and then finally, the last MRI that diagnosed the Bursitis. Then he tells me that actually, he doesn't think it is bursitis at all. Instead, he thinks a bit of the bone in my foot has died because it shows up as a horrible grey colour, not white like fluid. This would also explain why nothing showed on the bone scan, since there is no increased blood flow to make it a 'hotspot'.
Cue much panic and him not giving me a straight answer on what would happen if it was dead.
So, I get sent straight off for another $450 MRI scan to confirm it.
With much baited breath and gnashing of teeth (and contemplating a lifetime of pain in my foot or surgery or far worse no more running) I finally get back in to see the specialist at 4pm.
He reviewed the new MRI and turns out it is bursitis after. Phew. Chronic Sesamoiditis, to be precise. To fix it, I've got to get an orthotic made for the foot and wear it for six to eight months. It will probably take that long until the inflammation goes down and the bursa thins out again. I can try running on it when it starts to feel better but I have to stop immediately if it hurts. So this means no long runs for a long time and counting forwards eight months, looks like I might not make it to the GCM next year either. Waa.
Looking at the bigger picture, I know this is actually good news (no surgery or cortisone!) and I'm very happy the bone wasn't dead. I guess part of me had been waiting for this appointment for so long that I had half imagined there'd be some magic bullet cure. Or that it wouldn't take so long to fix. Or that I'd known how to fix it months ago. At the moment I just feel cranky because I walked alot yesterday to stir it up for the specialist and consequently my foot now hurts like hell again and I'm truly, truly sick of it.
But there we are. Thinks could be worse. Once I have a couple of orthotics made, I can start trying to run again. That at least, is something.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
update
Hello, hello.
Another non-running blog post for you all. I am unfortunately still stuck in the land of non-running until at the very earliest, 12 September, when I see the specialist about my foot. The last few months have definitely made me appreciate what it is to be healthy and fit. I know I keep saying it, but I will never take it for granted ever again. It has made me realise that it is perhaps not a good plan to rely so heavily on running as stress relief and a social life - good to have other options to fall back on.
Not much else to report... I recently had an exhibition, sold some work. Work is crazily busy, as always. My sister is pregnant again and my car is being repaired, post limo-bust up. I still can't work out how my car was hardly damaged and the big expensive monster was trashed!
I have also had all my hair cut off again in a short, messy 'bed hair' crop, a la halle berry/michelle williams.
Another non-running blog post for you all. I am unfortunately still stuck in the land of non-running until at the very earliest, 12 September, when I see the specialist about my foot. The last few months have definitely made me appreciate what it is to be healthy and fit. I know I keep saying it, but I will never take it for granted ever again. It has made me realise that it is perhaps not a good plan to rely so heavily on running as stress relief and a social life - good to have other options to fall back on.
Not much else to report... I recently had an exhibition, sold some work. Work is crazily busy, as always. My sister is pregnant again and my car is being repaired, post limo-bust up. I still can't work out how my car was hardly damaged and the big expensive monster was trashed!
I have also had all my hair cut off again in a short, messy 'bed hair' crop, a la halle berry/michelle williams.
Friday, August 10, 2007
limo
I forgot to mention in my previous post that I had a car accident last week.
I was driving to work, minding my own business and waiting to turn into the car park at work, when a bus stopped to let me through. Without thinking (!) I pulled across and promptly hit a car.
Not just any car, either. No.
I hit a two week old, chaffeur driven car, which, apparently (on looking at the business card of the driver) was actually a limo. I managed to take out three panels of his car, but only scratched the paint off the front of my faithful little toyota starlet.
Either way, I still have to pay the excess, so I'm getting mine repaired too.
When I'd calmed down from that, I went into work. Later, I went to leave for a doctors appointment to discover I had locked my keys in my car in the kerfuffle. It was only that I left the boot unlocked that I managed to scramble through and unlock the door without having to call the RACQ.
Whose overdue membership fee, I promptly decided to pay!
I was driving to work, minding my own business and waiting to turn into the car park at work, when a bus stopped to let me through. Without thinking (!) I pulled across and promptly hit a car.
Not just any car, either. No.
I hit a two week old, chaffeur driven car, which, apparently (on looking at the business card of the driver) was actually a limo. I managed to take out three panels of his car, but only scratched the paint off the front of my faithful little toyota starlet.
Either way, I still have to pay the excess, so I'm getting mine repaired too.
When I'd calmed down from that, I went into work. Later, I went to leave for a doctors appointment to discover I had locked my keys in my car in the kerfuffle. It was only that I left the boot unlocked that I managed to scramble through and unlock the door without having to call the RACQ.
Whose overdue membership fee, I promptly decided to pay!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
update
I have had about a million emails from everyone asking why I haven't blogged anything in ages, so I thought I should do a brief update of sorts.
I'm still not running and am still waiting for my specialist appointment to come up. The good news is that because I've done virtually no exercise for ages (and I'm talking one RPM class a week if that!) my foot actually feels a bit better. I may start walking to see if it recurs.
I've since had some other medical problems, which has resulted in a lot of doctors appointments and various other stuff. It is hopefully nothing that won't respond to treatment but it's meant I haven't been a very well girl, hence no blogging.
I have also put on a fair amount of weight again. I'm not back to 126kgs, but I'm a lot fatter than I've been in a long time. It's not a very nice place to be.
At the moment, I'm hoping that once I get the all clear to start running again (and learn to run again!) and with some more treatment for other stuff, things will improve.
I'm still not running and am still waiting for my specialist appointment to come up. The good news is that because I've done virtually no exercise for ages (and I'm talking one RPM class a week if that!) my foot actually feels a bit better. I may start walking to see if it recurs.
I've since had some other medical problems, which has resulted in a lot of doctors appointments and various other stuff. It is hopefully nothing that won't respond to treatment but it's meant I haven't been a very well girl, hence no blogging.
I have also put on a fair amount of weight again. I'm not back to 126kgs, but I'm a lot fatter than I've been in a long time. It's not a very nice place to be.
At the moment, I'm hoping that once I get the all clear to start running again (and learn to run again!) and with some more treatment for other stuff, things will improve.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
dreaming
I dream last night that I was on a long run on the bike path by the river - the sun was sparkling on the water and the wind was in my hair. I could feel the salt drying on my skin and my heart pumping the blood through my body... felt really alive and full of joy to be plodding along like I used to.
Then I woke up :(
Anyway...
I got bumped up the waiting list for the specialist another week, after my doctor sent a faxed referral. I did learn to call on mondays though, to see if there's any more cancellations. I feel like just bloody running on it, only I don't want to be in pain for the foreseeable future or do any long term damage.
Have been doing RPM classes with Linda. The biggest achievement in which has been that my arse is no longer as sore as it was after a class any more. Perhaps it's because I'm spending so much more time sitting on it!
Then I woke up :(
Anyway...
I got bumped up the waiting list for the specialist another week, after my doctor sent a faxed referral. I did learn to call on mondays though, to see if there's any more cancellations. I feel like just bloody running on it, only I don't want to be in pain for the foreseeable future or do any long term damage.
Have been doing RPM classes with Linda. The biggest achievement in which has been that my arse is no longer as sore as it was after a class any more. Perhaps it's because I'm spending so much more time sitting on it!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Sunday, July 01, 2007
GCM 2007
So, ventured down to the gold coast today to watch everyone do the half, the 10k and the marathon. Full of memories of last year and it killed me watching everyone get all pumped and take off, only to stand like a lemon and watch.Pretty emotional and it actually sort of took me by surprise - I was quite prepared to stand and cheer and take lots of photos, when I remembered to hand my chip back in and was told I couldn't even get the tshirt because they're for 'finishers' only. Much to my embarrassment I almost cried in front of the woman. Yes, I know it's only a bloody race, it's only a bloody tshirt and there's always bloody next year, but it still upset me. I'm easily upset currently, much to my irritation. I just can't wait for this year to be over.
It wasn't all doom and gloom though - this pic is me and running buddy Tracey stealing the sub 3.30 marathon sign at the start of the race. It's the closest we're ever going to get to one and we gave it back afterwards, honest ;)
I took about 200 photos all up but I'm not uploading them until I get to work (and fast broadband) but lots of nice shots. Susannah did an amazing PB, coming in at just over 3.30 (18mins!) and Ronnie came in at 2.15, smashing her PB by 15 minutes! Great to see.
I couldn't find the CR cheer squad and couldn't hear well enough to use my mobile - too much noise and if I moved, I'd have lost our spot/table/place which I was holding for the run inn runners. Mind you, I almost didn't want to see anyone when I feel so revolting - better for me to just pull my head in and get on with getting myself sorted out before facing lovely CR people. Was quite happy just seeing one or two familiar faces and having a relatively quiet one.
It's good that it was quiet, because if I have anything to do with it, next year is going to be anything but! Nothing motivates more than a good dose of abject frustration.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Quiet on the Western Front
Well, not much new to report here. I'm still waiting for my appointment with the doc to see if there's anything that can be done about the wait for the specialist. I don't think the antibiotics I'm taking are doing anything for my foot. The anti-inflammatories help, but the dose isn't high enough to make much difference (it's Prexige again, but only one a day).
Went to the run inn on wednesday to wish everyone luck at the coast. Really bittersweet because it made me remember how electric and exciting it was this time last year for me as I got ready to run my first 'proper' marathon. I know there'll hopefully be many more (and if nothing else, being on the bench is increasing my motivation for when I can run again) but it still made me want to cry! Whinge, whinge, whinge. I will never, ever, ever, take running like I was, for granted, ever again.
Have realised I'm supposed to be at a work-related function on saturday night and I can't really get out of it without looking enormously rude, so I have decided to car pool with the girls on the sunday morning. The lovely Susannah had offered me a bed in her apartment bless her and I feel reeeallyyyy bad about not using it, but I don't want to dampen anyone else's experience while I'm such a misery guts.
The truth is that my current state of woe is due to a bit more than a bung foot unfortunately and while I'm prepped and ready to cheer my lungs out for all and sundry, until I get my head together and sort myself out a bit, I have a suspicion that I'm going to tend to be a bit of a piker. The important thing is that I'm doing something about it, so I hope everyone can be a bit patient with me until I get myself together.
That said, I am looking forward to seeing everyone at the race. I am contemplating giving my chip to someone uber fast so that I can claim a sub 1:40 half, but I think that might be cheating ;) I am going to take my camera and take lots of pics for everyone, too.
Went to the run inn on wednesday to wish everyone luck at the coast. Really bittersweet because it made me remember how electric and exciting it was this time last year for me as I got ready to run my first 'proper' marathon. I know there'll hopefully be many more (and if nothing else, being on the bench is increasing my motivation for when I can run again) but it still made me want to cry! Whinge, whinge, whinge. I will never, ever, ever, take running like I was, for granted, ever again.
Have realised I'm supposed to be at a work-related function on saturday night and I can't really get out of it without looking enormously rude, so I have decided to car pool with the girls on the sunday morning. The lovely Susannah had offered me a bed in her apartment bless her and I feel reeeallyyyy bad about not using it, but I don't want to dampen anyone else's experience while I'm such a misery guts.
The truth is that my current state of woe is due to a bit more than a bung foot unfortunately and while I'm prepped and ready to cheer my lungs out for all and sundry, until I get my head together and sort myself out a bit, I have a suspicion that I'm going to tend to be a bit of a piker. The important thing is that I'm doing something about it, so I hope everyone can be a bit patient with me until I get myself together.
That said, I am looking forward to seeing everyone at the race. I am contemplating giving my chip to someone uber fast so that I can claim a sub 1:40 half, but I think that might be cheating ;) I am going to take my camera and take lots of pics for everyone, too.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
fark!
Rang up today to get an appointment with the specialist. Whose first available appointment is October 31st. That's almost four months away. Four months. By which point, if this doesn't fix itself, I will have had !@%#$ bursitis for eight months straight. Far Out.
Did half an hour on the bike and a body balance class and then an RPM class this morning, followed by a brief swim. My butt is killing me from the bike seats and I've discovered I can't even do most of a body balance class because it involves flexing your feet in a painful manner. I am suspecting the same will be true of yoga.
Blah. Blah. Blah....
Did half an hour on the bike and a body balance class and then an RPM class this morning, followed by a brief swim. My butt is killing me from the bike seats and I've discovered I can't even do most of a body balance class because it involves flexing your feet in a painful manner. I am suspecting the same will be true of yoga.
Blah. Blah. Blah....
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
referral
Thanks for all the supportive comments, guys. Much appreciated!
Went back to see my lovely running doc and now have a referral for the specialist. I've also got another course of anti-inflams and some antibiotics to take (apparently there can be infection in the bursa). The Doc doesn't think another round of pills will help after all this time (but hey, worth a shot!) and that the specialist will go with cortisone, which, I've decided, if it's put to me as a treatment option, I will try in conjunction with no running for the foreseeable future while all this gets sorted out. If the cortisone doesn't work, then it means surgery. Blah!
It's been really interesting hearing about everyone's experiences with cortisone, good and bad, but currently I am at the stage where I am in pain at some point every day with it so I'm ready to do whatever it takes. If it doesn't work, nothing ventured, nothing gained. You never know, perhaps the specialist will have other options for me to consider, too.
Am doing RPM classes with running buddy L and some body balance with workmate, S. Will throw myself in the pool a few times a week and hopefully that (and my Psychologist!) will stop me rocketing all the way back to morbid obesity.
There you go, an almost positive blog! I'm going to have to think of other things to write about in the interim period ;)
Went back to see my lovely running doc and now have a referral for the specialist. I've also got another course of anti-inflams and some antibiotics to take (apparently there can be infection in the bursa). The Doc doesn't think another round of pills will help after all this time (but hey, worth a shot!) and that the specialist will go with cortisone, which, I've decided, if it's put to me as a treatment option, I will try in conjunction with no running for the foreseeable future while all this gets sorted out. If the cortisone doesn't work, then it means surgery. Blah!
It's been really interesting hearing about everyone's experiences with cortisone, good and bad, but currently I am at the stage where I am in pain at some point every day with it so I'm ready to do whatever it takes. If it doesn't work, nothing ventured, nothing gained. You never know, perhaps the specialist will have other options for me to consider, too.
Am doing RPM classes with running buddy L and some body balance with workmate, S. Will throw myself in the pool a few times a week and hopefully that (and my Psychologist!) will stop me rocketing all the way back to morbid obesity.
There you go, an almost positive blog! I'm going to have to think of other things to write about in the interim period ;)
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Went to the 5km TT this morning at Shorncliffe and had a bit of a chat with Uncle Phil about the bursitis and cortisone and stuff. He's not sure that getting an injection is the best thing and reckons it often doesn't work. After lots of reading (hurrah for CR and google) it seems there are definitely two schools of thought. Those for, those against.
So, I'm thinking perhaps I should just get in to see a podiatrist (Nathan Eadie was recommended to me but apparently he's hard to get in to see - very popular) get everything assessed and just take a few months off completely to see if it helps, before resorting to steroids. Gah. I dunno.
It is going to absolutely kill me not to run. Mostly because once the memory of the endorphins fades, I'm terrified I won't ever find the motivation to start again. I feel like running now defines a part of who I am and no other form of exercise really does it for me anymore. Anything else I might like to do (team sports like football, netball, volleyball) are all going to involve the same old pounding. I'm scared I'm really going to let lose the hounds and rocket back up to 126kg.
I picked up my GC race pack today as well. I didn't downgrade it to the 10km so technically I'm still entered in the half. I'm debating the wisdom of doing any event at all really - all it's going to do is agravate the situation and I don't even think I would make it to the 10km mark currently. The jury is still out but my foot hurts after a 5km jog this morning, so it's not looking good. What a waste of $65.00.
Blah. Just call me Ms.Misery Guts. I'm not blogging again until I have something positive to say! I can't stand listening to myself!
So, I'm thinking perhaps I should just get in to see a podiatrist (Nathan Eadie was recommended to me but apparently he's hard to get in to see - very popular) get everything assessed and just take a few months off completely to see if it helps, before resorting to steroids. Gah. I dunno.
It is going to absolutely kill me not to run. Mostly because once the memory of the endorphins fades, I'm terrified I won't ever find the motivation to start again. I feel like running now defines a part of who I am and no other form of exercise really does it for me anymore. Anything else I might like to do (team sports like football, netball, volleyball) are all going to involve the same old pounding. I'm scared I'm really going to let lose the hounds and rocket back up to 126kg.
I picked up my GC race pack today as well. I didn't downgrade it to the 10km so technically I'm still entered in the half. I'm debating the wisdom of doing any event at all really - all it's going to do is agravate the situation and I don't even think I would make it to the 10km mark currently. The jury is still out but my foot hurts after a 5km jog this morning, so it's not looking good. What a waste of $65.00.
Blah. Just call me Ms.Misery Guts. I'm not blogging again until I have something positive to say! I can't stand listening to myself!
Friday, June 22, 2007
MRI results are back
Well, the good (?) news is that my foot problems werent just my imagination.
I have bursitis in two of the joints in my big toe. The MRI picked up fluid in them and a bit of distention, but apparently not enough to need draining (!)
I haven't really had a chance to google/search CR about it yet, but from a brief glance at the web, seems treatment is rest (check) anti-inflammatories (check) ice (check) and failing those three (check) cortisone injections. Bugger me :(
Besides the fact that I'm not too fabulous with huge needles, I'll have to find out if this is a long term solution or just a temporary one. If it's a temporary one and it's going to come back, what's the point?
Blah. Who would have thought something so small could cause so many problems!
But on the bright side, at least it's not more serious.
I have bursitis in two of the joints in my big toe. The MRI picked up fluid in them and a bit of distention, but apparently not enough to need draining (!)
I haven't really had a chance to google/search CR about it yet, but from a brief glance at the web, seems treatment is rest (check) anti-inflammatories (check) ice (check) and failing those three (check) cortisone injections. Bugger me :(
Besides the fact that I'm not too fabulous with huge needles, I'll have to find out if this is a long term solution or just a temporary one. If it's a temporary one and it's going to come back, what's the point?
Blah. Who would have thought something so small could cause so many problems!
But on the bright side, at least it's not more serious.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
50 minutes
Finally went for a run this morning, after getting over the worst of the bug. I haven't been that sick in ages! Blah!
Met Linda at the park down the road and we did a slow 50 minute plod. Hopefully we can increase that slow 50 minute plod to 60 minutes next week.
My MRI is booked for thursday. If it doesn't show anything (and therefore that I am not doing myself any major damage through increasing training) I've decided I am going to just going to bite the bullet, stick my head down and try and run through the pain. If something does show up (and I totally can't believe it won't!) I guess I can find out what my options are but at least I'll know where I'm at.
Thinking about going to Lake Manchester tomorrow.
Met Linda at the park down the road and we did a slow 50 minute plod. Hopefully we can increase that slow 50 minute plod to 60 minutes next week.
My MRI is booked for thursday. If it doesn't show anything (and therefore that I am not doing myself any major damage through increasing training) I've decided I am going to just going to bite the bullet, stick my head down and try and run through the pain. If something does show up (and I totally can't believe it won't!) I guess I can find out what my options are but at least I'll know where I'm at.
Thinking about going to Lake Manchester tomorrow.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
All change...
Forgive me, running gods - it has been some days since my last confession.
No change with my foot. I've been running very little. Toyed with the idea of running at the Queensland Half, but an attempt at running 10km the wednesday prior put rest to that idea. I got 5km in and then the pain in my foot kicked back in and I ended up walking the rest of the way home. Instead, I helped out by doing rego and then giving out bling and towels to the finishers. Nice to see familiar faces, even if it was a bit hard not to be out there.
I stopped taking the voltaren about a week ago, as my kidneys and back started to hurt. The minute I came off it, the foot problems started back up. Although, I think it's not quite as bad. Hard to tell if that's my wishful thinking!
Running on wednesday night was interesting. The heavy rain meant that no other beginners showed up and consequently, I almost escaped without a run. Ended up being shoved out of the door with Uncle Phil and Kylie and ran a few kms. They slowed down for me, but it was still pretty fast for me. Gone are the days when I could just about keep up when they did slow down!
Eventually, Uncle Phil, Kylie and Mattie dropped off the back with me. I hate other people having to do that for me, but I needed a break, so we walked a way. I'd done a PT session in the morning, so I suppose that didn't help matters, either!
I've been working really, really hard lately both at work and on another exhibition that I have coming up next month. Consequently, I'm a bit run down and have caught a nasty bug from somewhere that is making me feel like death warmed up.
I'm getting so sick of hearing myself whinge, I can't imagine how bloody irritating it must be to have to listen to me lately! LOL! As Uncle Phil reminded me on wednesday, there are worse things in life to deal with than a sore foot and I will eventually get my fitness back and run without pain again.
I've also started getting help working on some of the issues that tie into my problems with food and depression. It's not a very pleasant process - reopening old wounds, and facing some nasty stuff, but if it means that I can come out of the other side of all this feeling stronger, fitter, healthier and happier, then it's got to be worth it in the end.
Everything seems to be in a state of change lately - my personal trainer has increased his fees way beyond my budget, so I've got three more sessions left before I give that up. I feel a bit sad about that, too - I've been training with him for over three years and he's helped me a lot. That said, it's probably also a good thing for me, too. I've rejoined the gym so I'm not going to stop exercising or anything, but I really need to just take some time to sort myself out.
Having this bloody foot problem has definitely taught me about humility and not to take fitness or exercise or running for granted. I'd forgotten how much of an achievement it is to even be able to run 5km - 5km currently feels like 30km used to. I'm still undecided as to whether to go ahead with an MRI but I probably will.
At the moment, I feel a bit like I've fallen apart and am currently trying to put myself back together. The good thing about that I suppose, is that as I remake myself, I can be better than I was before.
Anyway, enough of a heartfelt entry from me and back to your regular viewing. Speaking of which, Shane, where is your blog now? I keep meaning to catch up and leave you comments, but I can't find it!
No change with my foot. I've been running very little. Toyed with the idea of running at the Queensland Half, but an attempt at running 10km the wednesday prior put rest to that idea. I got 5km in and then the pain in my foot kicked back in and I ended up walking the rest of the way home. Instead, I helped out by doing rego and then giving out bling and towels to the finishers. Nice to see familiar faces, even if it was a bit hard not to be out there.
I stopped taking the voltaren about a week ago, as my kidneys and back started to hurt. The minute I came off it, the foot problems started back up. Although, I think it's not quite as bad. Hard to tell if that's my wishful thinking!
Running on wednesday night was interesting. The heavy rain meant that no other beginners showed up and consequently, I almost escaped without a run. Ended up being shoved out of the door with Uncle Phil and Kylie and ran a few kms. They slowed down for me, but it was still pretty fast for me. Gone are the days when I could just about keep up when they did slow down!
Eventually, Uncle Phil, Kylie and Mattie dropped off the back with me. I hate other people having to do that for me, but I needed a break, so we walked a way. I'd done a PT session in the morning, so I suppose that didn't help matters, either!
I've been working really, really hard lately both at work and on another exhibition that I have coming up next month. Consequently, I'm a bit run down and have caught a nasty bug from somewhere that is making me feel like death warmed up.
I'm getting so sick of hearing myself whinge, I can't imagine how bloody irritating it must be to have to listen to me lately! LOL! As Uncle Phil reminded me on wednesday, there are worse things in life to deal with than a sore foot and I will eventually get my fitness back and run without pain again.
I've also started getting help working on some of the issues that tie into my problems with food and depression. It's not a very pleasant process - reopening old wounds, and facing some nasty stuff, but if it means that I can come out of the other side of all this feeling stronger, fitter, healthier and happier, then it's got to be worth it in the end.
Everything seems to be in a state of change lately - my personal trainer has increased his fees way beyond my budget, so I've got three more sessions left before I give that up. I feel a bit sad about that, too - I've been training with him for over three years and he's helped me a lot. That said, it's probably also a good thing for me, too. I've rejoined the gym so I'm not going to stop exercising or anything, but I really need to just take some time to sort myself out.
Having this bloody foot problem has definitely taught me about humility and not to take fitness or exercise or running for granted. I'd forgotten how much of an achievement it is to even be able to run 5km - 5km currently feels like 30km used to. I'm still undecided as to whether to go ahead with an MRI but I probably will.
At the moment, I feel a bit like I've fallen apart and am currently trying to put myself back together. The good thing about that I suppose, is that as I remake myself, I can be better than I was before.
Anyway, enough of a heartfelt entry from me and back to your regular viewing. Speaking of which, Shane, where is your blog now? I keep meaning to catch up and leave you comments, but I can't find it!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Goal Shoals
Well, I hope I'm not tempting fate in saying this, but now my foot is feeling oh so slightly better, I feel like planning some goals for the next year or so. Something to aim towards, because not having goals currently is making me do sweet FA!
I've finished the first course of Prexige and am now onto Voltaren three time a day for a couple of weeks. I can feel the injury a little bit more again (thinking it's because voltaren isn't as strong) so I'm not counting my chickens just yet but it would just be nice to have something to daydream about when I'm driving myself nuts watching everyone else do all the big races!
I was supposed to do the 5km TT yesterday morning and slept in, so this morning I went to Mt.Cootha and did 45 minutes on the trails. Bit of a rush because I have to go and take my exhibition down today. Walked a fair bit. As I was run/walking, I was thinking that perhaps Six Foot might be a good training goal. I'm thinking I'll need at the very least, a solid six month lead up (which is going to mean training through the hot weather, argh!) but as long as my injury continues to improve, it's a realistic idea. Gives me a few months just to come good, then I can kick in to it properly.
I'd also like to do the 24km GH run at the end of july and then (all being well!) the 30km in september (what happened to the 50k option?) I want to regain a bit of confidence in my ability to do the distance. Amazing how much you can take that for granted.
I'm still not quite sure about the Queensland Half next weekend. It's a bit scary because it's such a jump in distance from what I have been reduced to. The last three or four weeks at least, I've run nothing longer than about 10km. I don't know whether I should just skip it, do the 10km (though it'll kill me to be there and not do the half!) or pace the 2:30 group again with Ronnie.
What other goals should I have for the next year or so? (other than 100 miles next year!)
I've finished the first course of Prexige and am now onto Voltaren three time a day for a couple of weeks. I can feel the injury a little bit more again (thinking it's because voltaren isn't as strong) so I'm not counting my chickens just yet but it would just be nice to have something to daydream about when I'm driving myself nuts watching everyone else do all the big races!
I was supposed to do the 5km TT yesterday morning and slept in, so this morning I went to Mt.Cootha and did 45 minutes on the trails. Bit of a rush because I have to go and take my exhibition down today. Walked a fair bit. As I was run/walking, I was thinking that perhaps Six Foot might be a good training goal. I'm thinking I'll need at the very least, a solid six month lead up (which is going to mean training through the hot weather, argh!) but as long as my injury continues to improve, it's a realistic idea. Gives me a few months just to come good, then I can kick in to it properly.
I'd also like to do the 24km GH run at the end of july and then (all being well!) the 30km in september (what happened to the 50k option?) I want to regain a bit of confidence in my ability to do the distance. Amazing how much you can take that for granted.
I'm still not quite sure about the Queensland Half next weekend. It's a bit scary because it's such a jump in distance from what I have been reduced to. The last three or four weeks at least, I've run nothing longer than about 10km. I don't know whether I should just skip it, do the 10km (though it'll kill me to be there and not do the half!) or pace the 2:30 group again with Ronnie.
What other goals should I have for the next year or so? (other than 100 miles next year!)
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Glasshouse 11km
Well, it was good to be back at Glasshouse. Even if it was really bizarre to be doing the short event. Felt a bit sad I wasn't able to have a crack at the 80km, which was one of my previous goals for the year. Anyway, I'm sure all this complete and utter frustration will push me to train harder once I'm able. Look out, next year!
Linda and I ran the 11km in about 1:10 I think. Foot felt okay, though started to twinge and swell half way through. (aren't I glad I didn't have a crack at 30km? I almost did - wouldn't have made it to 20km) Very strange to feel soooo unfit whilst out there - I remember just being able to keep on going. Not that GH is ever easy, but all this has certainly made me appreciate being able to stumble along consistently for hours like I could.
Oh and add to that the fact that just as I came off the trail onto the last 100m of tarmac, I managed to full on kick a tree root with my bad foot!
$%&*#&$ !!
(well, I don't think I was as polite as that!) Stuck my foot in the icy cold pool for 20 minutes then again when it started to throb and now seems not to be too bad again, but tomorrow will tell no doubt.
Really good to catch up with a few familiar faces. Tanky absolutely decimated her 80km. I think she said she did it 2 hours faster than last year! Vegie did the 30km with Di and came in looking fresh as a daisy. I got a text from Susannah saying she came 12 th Female (out of two hundred!) in the Great Wall of China Marathon. That girl is absolutely phenomenal! Inspirational :) I'm sure she could make it on the Aussie ultra team if she wanted.
A new week and back to work tomorrow :( Can't believe how quickly my two weeks off went! Tentative plans for the week:
Mon: Circuit training a.m + 5km walk/run
Tues: Track session
Wed: PT session a.m, Club run p.m
Thurs: 5km walk/run
Fri: Circuit training a.m
Sat: 5km TT a.m + 1:30 (?) hour run
Sun: REST
The saturday long run will vary depending on how my foot holds up, as will the 5km runs on monday and thursday.
Hope everyone that went to Warwick had a fab time. I really missed it! Next time, Gadget!
Linda and I ran the 11km in about 1:10 I think. Foot felt okay, though started to twinge and swell half way through. (aren't I glad I didn't have a crack at 30km? I almost did - wouldn't have made it to 20km) Very strange to feel soooo unfit whilst out there - I remember just being able to keep on going. Not that GH is ever easy, but all this has certainly made me appreciate being able to stumble along consistently for hours like I could.
Oh and add to that the fact that just as I came off the trail onto the last 100m of tarmac, I managed to full on kick a tree root with my bad foot!
$%&*#&$ !!
(well, I don't think I was as polite as that!) Stuck my foot in the icy cold pool for 20 minutes then again when it started to throb and now seems not to be too bad again, but tomorrow will tell no doubt.
Really good to catch up with a few familiar faces. Tanky absolutely decimated her 80km. I think she said she did it 2 hours faster than last year! Vegie did the 30km with Di and came in looking fresh as a daisy. I got a text from Susannah saying she came 12 th Female (out of two hundred!) in the Great Wall of China Marathon. That girl is absolutely phenomenal! Inspirational :) I'm sure she could make it on the Aussie ultra team if she wanted.
A new week and back to work tomorrow :( Can't believe how quickly my two weeks off went! Tentative plans for the week:
Mon: Circuit training a.m + 5km walk/run
Tues: Track session
Wed: PT session a.m, Club run p.m
Thurs: 5km walk/run
Fri: Circuit training a.m
Sat: 5km TT a.m + 1:30 (?) hour run
Sun: REST
The saturday long run will vary depending on how my foot holds up, as will the 5km runs on monday and thursday.
Hope everyone that went to Warwick had a fab time. I really missed it! Next time, Gadget!
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