Whatever happened to Hannah?

Hello Team. Not sure if anyone actually reads this blog anymore, but I felt some compulsion (after four months!) to update a little bit.

So, what's been going on?

I've been in and out of hospital. I had a course of ECT (electro convulsive therapy) to try to treat my severe depression and various other joyful things, only it REALLY didn't agree with me and now I have amnesia. I literally cannot remember the last eight weeks and half a ton of stuff beyond that. I actually forgot that my sister has three kids, couldn't remember my home phone number or how to get from home to work. It is soooo frustrating, I cannot express exactly what it's like.

My mother keeps telling me all about things we did during the eight weeks I was in during ECT and I have no recollection. I feel like someone stole my body.

Add to which, they let me out too quickly afterwards, stupidly I went back to work the day after being released (stress from funding cuts being the main motivator with that) and predictably, I had another melt down.

Currently I'm out on day release for the weekend, and have to go back on sunday arvo, but I think I've been back in for a month now.

I can't quite figure out what the bloody hell happened to my life. It just sort of exploded on me!

Obviously, I've done no exercise in MONTHS. My weight is up to 100kg again (joy...) though I have lost six kg due to crap hospital food. Despite all the physical rest, my foot STILL bloody hurts.

Blah.

Anyway, I'm still kicking (with one foot, anyway) and I hope things are going better for all of you! I am doubting whether I'll ever be able to run again at this point :(

hi

hello all, very quick post to say I'm still here, still alive. I'm using one of those dodgy netkiosk thingies. I'm in hospital unfortunately and have been for the last ten days but hoping to be out tonight or early this week! Dying to get out into fresh air!

Hope you're all well, safe and happy.